really?

like really?

weird.

so i meant to go to playlist.com to listen to some music but when i looked up at the screen i had subconciously typed in blogspot.com. i'm obviously meant to blog. I miss my mom a lot. and i miss my friends. I was so excited to be in California so long so that i could see Lindsay because i havent seen in her in so long. So when i try to make plans shes leaving for Arizona for a week. What? like really is this happening.

smile.

even the littlest thing made my entire dau
"i've been thinking about you lately and i decided i would text you and see how you were doing"
<3

crazy dreams.

Last night i had the greatest dream ever. Things were perfect in it. And than i woke up and realized that i was back to reality that when i walked outta my room i wouldnt be on a tour bus i'd just be in my house. I hate when you have a dream thats so perfect you never want to wake up and you just want to keep dreaming and dreaming.

tell me why

why does your name have to be so damn common?

mom.

So today me and my mom had a talk for a good hour. It wasnt just like a normal 'how are you' talk. We talked about real things about my life, about my family everything. And during it she told me the biggest secret that my family has right now and she trusted me with it. We also talked about my brother. I told her that life would be so much simpilier for everyone if Landon was a girl. I said that we'd get along better and have the BFF bond that i have always wanted. And now that i am thinking about i wouldnt trade Landon for the world. Even though we constantly are fighting i know that one day in the future we will have the BFF bond that I want. We als0 talked about how my mom had a miscarrage. She had it after she had my sister and than 7 years later i came along. I strongly believe that i was the miscarriage and after a good 7 years i reformed and came into the earth. I feel like i was brought here to make my mom happy because 7 years after i was born my parents got divorced. I feel like these 7 year incriments mean something. Am i crazy?

thoughts on the world

If we lived in a perfect world things would be so much easier than they are now. I would have the guts to tell the guy i have been crushing on forever how i feel without him thinking i was an idiot, My parents would never have gotten divorced and my life would be so much more simple than it is now, My brother and I would get along for once in our lives, I would still have the best friends that I had when i was in kindergarden, There would be no homeless people or starving people, The war would have never begun and peace would take over, There would be no racism and everyone would just be happy.